There was no big ah-ha moment influencing my decision, just an urge to try something new and conquer my inability to remain natural after numerous failed attempts.
How did the first few weeks go?
Ha. Funny enough? Traumatizing.
This my friends, is where the drama really ensued.
In the beginning, I struggled more with not recognizing myself and less with how to style my hair (not that I had much of an option anyway.) Dealing with awkward coworkers who had a million and one questions wasn’t easy either, but that’s a whole ‘nother topic for a WHOOLLE 'nother day.
If we’re keeping it g, some days, I believe my ability to remain natural is partially driven by my refusal to be labeled as a quitter(by myself), and partially because I’m too lazy to actually go back to being relaxed.
Competitive laziness: I like to call it.
It’s not all that bad, though.
Of course there’s the part about me loving my natural hair and embracing my hair texture and all that good stuff, but again, it’s just a portion and isn’t necessarily why I’m walking to the beat of my own natural drum.
This may sound crazy, but the entire “natural hair movement” was a bit intimidating, at first, and at times can be somewhat of a turn off. It’s like people act like you’ve finally seen the light and are leaving the dark side, ridding your soul of all things relaxed.
It aint that deep, at least for me lol.
There are a million blogs, tutorials, and how-to’s on what to do and not to do
how to wash your hair
how often to wash your hair
what products to use
what LOC process to follow
How to sleep
How to categorize your hair texture
How to breath.
It can be a lot.
While I understand that most content is created to make the transition smooth and easy, for me, it actually made it the opposite, and sent me into a natural hair frenzy. In watching the plethora of videos , and reading all the posts, it became extremely clear that everything about being natural really is subjective and can’t be measured by any standard.
Realizing this, I decided that my one and only priority would be to ensure that my hair was healthy.
I haven’t done any monthly length checks.
I don’t listen to any gurus.
If my hair feels heavy, I wash it; whether it’s wash day or not.
If my hair decides it wants to shrivel up and spite me, despite an attempt to make it do otherwise? Cool. You got it homie.
I don’t know about yall, but I don’t have the time to be making my YouTube dreams come true, so I let my fro be, or find a protective style that still allows me to grease my scalp as I please.
In doing so, naturally, I’ve seen some growth, and am very impressed with both my patience and hair personality. My skin is clearer than ever and I have a peace of mind knowing that me and my hair are on the same page.
I’ll keep yall posted as this thang progresses.
Lots of love,